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in the beauty of that time
when you loved me
and i loved you
we laughed on the shores
of an island knowing that
one day this would come
and we would say
we will always have
napili bay
now
looking at the stars
from the darkness of a parking lot
and napping in the sunshine
from an open hotel room window
is so far away
and not so funny
here
in dim lighting
a dress circle
in the shadow
a steinway
notes brood
and keys
make thunder
until the storm
passes over
a melody
rich
beautiful
climbing
a sonata
that found its way
to seats
chosen specifically
for these final
moments
a place
to admit
we are here
where
foreboding sounds
fall like rain
on paths of places
we will never see again
a song
that sounds like
the end
2
after you
love
no
i insist
after me
love
we are free
we are young
we are alone
to swim
to smoke
to dream
of past wives and loves
that loom in dreams
of past lives
where children born
cry for help
and go unheard
for a life debased to
cyclical pleasures
of
water
intoxicants
words
silently sipping
among silhouettes
perusing the bodies
of others
waiting for words
any words
there are no words
but i can hear schubert
in the shopping mall
a sonata
they are numbered
listen now
to #960
now come back
oh please
come back
to these thin words
out of the blackness
oh please come back
blue electric white
held down
and zapped again
searing the synapses
until light
then dark
hey buddy
stay with us now
oh darling
remember
the dress circle
a kiss
a cab
now come back
please come back
to this luxury hotel
a bed
and the call
of the mourning dove
in the emptiness
of my room
a distant place
where i play custodian
to the memory of
your kisses
and orgasms
under
tall palm trees that sway
on long skinny poles
no longer the lover
i am the leaf that hangs
outside the window
waiting to finally fall
a release
from this lonely place
and memories of islands
soaked in rain
where cars race
past the window
another transient tourist
crashes into the pool
or
the door
upstairs
slams
or
laughter
sickening
laughter
3
dear miss
i miss
sleeping
beside you
watching you do
your lazy crazy
half asleep walk
to the washroom
in the morning
watching you sit at your seat
above the street
with bulbs of lights that
brighten your flawless face
dear miss
i miss
turning to look
up at your window
from the street below
to see you watching me
a smile
a kiss
goodbye
miss
until i return to take your fake silk kaftan that i bought you loved it it was one of the first things i ever bought you you still love it still wear it i am sure you are still wearing it making dinner and you come to the door in it i hold you i hold your whole face in my hands and i kiss you i kiss your lips i kiss your pillow cheeks and then i pull you close to me so i can smell you run my hands down your back and up again then down again past your waist then i kiss your neck i kiss your ears i kiss anything i kiss everything i kiss whatever tickles my fancy then i sit down at the table our little table adieu notre petite table and it starts all over again
dear miss
i miss
(repeat forever)
